my cutting has been getting so much worse the past few days - i have 6 new scars on my left wrist :(

the sad part is that i cut every time in the bathroom at a friends house. my anxiety level has been so high recently with leaving for college and worrying about future classes. it's scary how relieving cutting is and how much i rely on it to calm myself.

and only adding to my anxiety, one of my best friends won't get off my case about cutting. she doesn't exactly know that i do it (i've never come out and told her), but she keeps making references, asking to see my wrists for various reasons, and bringing it up. i want to tell her so badly - tell someone, but i am too afraid it would get back to my parents and i'd be royally screwed right before leaving for college.

i wish so badly that there was a way to cut without leaving a scar or a mark the next day. am i searching for recovery or another coping method? who knows. i can't do this anymore!