so i realized today, as i was eating dinner, that i think i have recovered (at least for now) from my eating disorder. i ate three meals today, and i have been for the past month or so. i am no longer using food to cope with emotions and i'm no longer restricting. i still am a bit calorie-careful, but i actually think i am comfortable with eating again, finally!

as i have posted before, with my recovery from anorexia/bulimia, my si has gotten worse. i use one to cope with the other. but, today i am completely motivated to move on from one recovery (ed) to the next (si). someone told me once to try to take it day by day, which is what i plan on doing. so, today = cut free! i am confident that if i just set short term goals it will go well!!