I know at my old school the phrases "self harm" and "eating disorder" was never even mentioned and I think this is something that people should be educated on.
That is the reason for this post.
BASICS
* Name: Sarah
* Age: 18
* Location: Chicago
EATING DISORDER
* An explanation of your e.d.: Was anorexia, morphed into current bulimia.
* How long have you had it?: 4 years of anorexia. 6 months bulima.
* Have you received any treatment for it?: Yes
* Have you been in recovery?: Yes
* Do other people know?: Yes
* What do you want out of recovery?: I'm so tired of purging. So tired.
* What holds you back from recovery?: My parents have no idea that my anorexia has turned into bulimia... they think I'm fine. I'm terrified if they find out they won't let me go to college next year.
OTHER MENTAL HEALTH
* Any other mental illness?: Post-traumatic stress disorder (mild)
* Any medications?: Yes
* Any other self-destructive habits (like self-injury, substance abuse, etc)?: No
* Are you currently in therapy?: No (it was the cause of the PTSD)
OTHER UNRELATED STUFF ABOUT YOU
* Are you in school?: Yes, a senior in high school.
* What kind of music do you like?: Everything but country (Johnny Cash is an exception. He's the man.)
* What's your favorite color?: Indigo
* What's a hobby you have?: Painting
* If you could live anywhere, where would it be?: Houseboat off the coast of Spain
* Your favorite quote: "Screws fall out all the time. The world is an imperfect place." --"The Breakfast Club"
- Location:my kitchen
- Mood:
worried - Music:"Shut it Down" by Pitbull
* Age: 20
* Location: US
EATING DISORDER
* An explanation of your e.d.: ednos - restricting, anorexic tendencies
* How long have you had it?: I'm not sure, I've struggled with body issues since I was 5
* Have you received any treatment for it?:No, but my best friend is trying to encourage me to get better :/
* Have you been in recovery?: no
* Do other people know?: yes, my best friend/roommate
* What do you want out of recovery?: I want to be able to eat normally, to feel okay about myself and learn to deal with my emotions in a healthier manner
* What holds you back from recovery?: I don't even know what it means, and leaving habits that give me a sense of security really frightens me
OTHER MENTAL HEALTH
* Any other mental illness?: anxiety and mild depression
* Any medications?: yes
* Any other self-destructive habits (like self-injury, substance abuse, etc)?: no
* Are you currently in therapy?: no
OTHER UNRELATED STUFF ABOUT YOU
* Are you in school?: yes, I'm a sophomore in college
* What kind of music do you like?: I listen to almost anything; ranging from the disney stars (miley, jb, demi lovato...I'm a nerd) to oldies, R&B, alternative, hip hop, pop, country...etc.
* What's your favorite color?: baby blue and I also like pink too
* What's a hobby you have?: I don't really have a hobby but I enjoy playing tennis
* If you could live anywhere, where would it be?: Not sure, somewhere nice and warm and sunny :)
* Your favorite quote: "If you think you can, you can, if you think you can't, you're right"
I've been confronted about my eating habits and ed and I've been told that if I don't change my ways my family will be notified. I can't let that happen. A part of me only wants to get better because of that and not really for myself, but then another part of me wants to be okay again, if that makes any sense at all. I tried eating more and using different ways of coping with my emotions and stress but I'm starting to fall back into my habits again. I don't want to see the number on the scale go up; I want the control. So I'm trying a new method. If I'm here in a community that offers support rather than destruction and negativity then maybe this is possible. As of right now this is my only hope before my family becomes involved; and if that happens then things will only get worse for me. I hope you all are doing well!

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- Location:Bed rest in pain....
- Mood:
angry - Music:system of a down....
Anyways, we're up, we're working, the load balancers are barely breaking a sweat right now and I need some food and a shot of whiskey. I don't even *like* whiskey!!
Thanks
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On Saturday the 14th at 4AM UTC/GMT we will be upgrading the operating system of our network load balancers to a newer version, one that will allow us to use both CPUs! Nifty, because multiprocessing is nice.
Since we have 2 load balancers, the plan is to upgrade 1 at a time, and there really should be very little impact to our website. Hopefully you won't notice a thing and I'll get to go back to the hotel and watch some wonderful late night infomercials.
We've got a lot of exciting projects coming up for 2010 and we're hoping that we'll be able to deliver them all to you, that you will find it useful/cool/lovely and then you will use the site even more. Behind-the-scenes work like this will give us the capacity to handle the anticipated traffic, so expect a few more maintenance windows especially in the beginning of next year as we've got some neat ideas to improve performance around here! We had the recent 30-45 minute outage yesterday due to one of our logging databases filling up disk space -- not so great design coupled with my human error in handling the initial problem -- and it looks like we're going to finally have some resources to eliminate stuff like that. I can't wait!
As usual, I will be updating status.livejournal.org before and after, just in case you are not able to reach our main website during the work.
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BASICS
* Name: kristen or krissi
* Age: 26
* Location: sw michigan
EATING DISORDER
* An explanation of your e.d.: i have binge eating disorder
* How long have you had it?: fifteen years
* Have you received any treatment for it?: currently seeking, just recently discovered i even had a problem.
* Have you been in recovery?: not yet. i am still actively ill. :(
* Do other people know?: i'm trying to spread knowledge of binge eating/compulsive overeating.. i want all who will listen to know
* What do you want out of recovery?: i just want to break the cycle of addiction and try to give my children a 'normal' upbringing. and i don't want to die and leave my children at a young age like my mom did.
* What holds you back from recovery?: my complete and utter lack of self control.. and the fact that i rely on MY strength.. and i just don't have enough to fight this demon.
OTHER MENTAL HEALTH
* Any other mental illness?: depression (also post partum depression) and anxiety
* Any medications?: i was on anti depressants (pristiq) and klonopin.. but my hair started falling out so i stopped it all.
* Any other self-destructive habits (like self-injury, substance abuse, etc)?: none.
* Are you currently in therapy?: december 4th i join MSUKCMS to begin treatment (praise the Lord)
OTHER UNRELATED STUFF ABOUT YOU
* Are you in school?: no. i am a stay at home mom to my two beautiful babies
* What kind of music do you like?: all.. specifically hip hop
* What's your favorite color?: black. pink.
* What's a hobby you have?: singing, cooking (kinda ironic huh?) photography, interior design
* If you could live anywhere, where would it be?: anywhere but here. somewhere they had lots of OA/CEA-HOW meetings and i could have a sponsor + tons of support
* Your favorite quote: 'it's not what they call you.. it's what you answer to'
** please by all means, add me, i'm new back to lj and only have a few friends.. and it's nice to connect with people that have the same stuff going on as me. <3
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